The Inspirer needs inspiration too

Today I realized how much inspiration and positivity is important. I try to be a positive person for others sometimes but when I am not positive, I really am not. I was in a self-pity, I-hate-everything phase and there was no positive thinking. There was nothing I found inspiring at the time that could get me out of my self-destructive mood. You know those moods where you imagine throwing things and turning over tables and tearing and pushing over everything? That's me in my mind when I get into that mood. I am no longer at the age where throwing a tantrum is tolerable or cute. So I keep my brain occupied and imagine it — even though it is not as satisfying as actually getting a room messy and breaking things. When I get in these moods it may take days or even weeks to get myself out of it. Occasionally, it takes one good appropriate sermon to pull me right out of the mood. However, this time around there were more external factors that caused me to stay in self-pity. A good sermon and personal devotion helped but not to the full extent it usually does. I was still going into a perfectly tidied room and breaking everything. Only this time I repeated the phrase I got from the Bible session angrily. "I have crazy faith and the peace of Christ is within me" (throws stuff as I say it).

So what really got me out of my destructive helping-no-one mood? My boyfriend — which happens quite often I must add. He helped by just reminding me about the things I want to achieve in life and suggesting ideas on how to achieve them. It took a while of him repeating stuff but I calmed down and eventually, I got inspired and drew for my journal. It was a complete mood switch from 'I hate the world' to 'I have so much to offer the world'. At that time my boyfriend's repetition of my goals and his encouraging words throughout my huffing and puffing was what I needed.

Then I wondered how many persons have that person— that person to inspire them, someone who cares for them or who cheers them on even when they're falling behind. Take a minute to think of the person who encourages you when you're down. Is it always that person? Or do you have a whole cheer squad of persons who can get you out of a bad mood?

My boyfriend is on my cheer squad

I always think about persons who are inspirers themselves. Others may think that these inspirers dont need to be encouraged as often or motivated because they must have ways to talk themselves back into action. It really isn't the case though.

There are those friends who get us back on our feet and there are those who lie there with us in the mud. I have friends who would get into the self-destructive mood with me as well. They would also be in that room self- destructing with me and causing double trouble in my imagination. I don't think that's helpful. It may be satisfying but definitely not helpful. This is where they also join you by complaining about their problems and their hard times in the same moment that you do. Who helps who in this situation? If you know of this actually working with your friends please comment and enlighten me.

As someone who loves to inspire we should try not to get stuck in our bad moods. We are allowed to have these moods like everyone else but to get stuck in that mood does not help us or our network. How do we stop ourselves from getting to that state though? Is there a way to stop ourselves or is it a natural occurrence that is necessary in our cycle of achieving. Tearing down the room, then fixing the room, tearing down the room, then fixing the room. I am still thinking on this.

Tell me what you think.